The Lord did something for me today. In the past I struggled with certain emotions. I have felt unworthy, guilty, unwanted, unloved and just downright cursed. As an adult, I have felt like a failure at about anything I tried to do. I did not understand why I could not get past the mountains of shame and guilt even thou I asked for forgiveness.
As I get closer to my Daddy God, He started peeling me like an onion. He took me back to places in my heart that were damage; He healed and delivered me. Each time He would help me clean out a spiritual closet in my heart He replaced the garbage with His love, mercy and grace. Some of the places He would fix and close the door forever. During my healing process, He showed me how He wants to heal and fix the broken hearts. We have to let Him help us to do this process.
To fast forward to now I have peace in many ways. The things I could not take care of I placed them at Jesus’ feet. I also learned to focus on God and the ones I take care of.
For years, I have struggled with balance in my home, work, family, and walk with God and finances. I would get to a point that I felt like I would make it, something would happen, and things would slide back. I could see hope but never quite made it there. I just felt stuck in the chooses of the past and stuck in a cycle.
Monday morning the spirit told me to go on a fast on certain things. He told me to study on a spirit of poverty and oppression. I started studying on this subject it is not being poor in the natural. It is a mindset that keeps you from finding peace. It causes you to be selfish and bitter. I gave that up this morning. I feel free of what had kept me down.
Thank you Father for one more step closer to you in our personal relationship. We do not have to stay bound and oppressed. We can make it in the Lord.
D.D.Parsons 